Out a Knee-High Window

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May 2012

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by Myrlin Hepworth
Billie Holiday Poem

Part I: What Billie Heard

—for Billie Holiday and Louis Armstrong


Billie Holiday heard the meat packing industry

and she heard New York.

Billie heard New York weep all the colors of an Alabama sunset.

Billie heard the water rinse across the blades at the slaughterhouse.

Billie heard industry inside that whore house in Harlem

where she listened to the fluids of animals wash through the drain.


A mans voice can stain the skin.


Billie heard the steel factory

in their grunts—their soprano grunts

carried the rhythm of hot metal shredding into liquid.

Billie heard the shipyard

in their moans— their moans crooned

with bass, a symphony

of waves knocking against docks.

She heard the coal mines,

in their thrusts— their thrusts synchronized

the movement of trolley over tracks.

Billie heard the meat packing plant

in their cries—their cries squealed

like rendered fat.


Billie heard broken men,

the sons of immigrants

grandsons of slaves—war on their faces.

Broken from using metal and cement to erect new plantations


Broken from building their own cemeteries

and calling it America.


The factory smoke, a gust of dreadful song

cycling through their dark eyes.


Broken men break things.

She was thirteen, Billies ears were breaking.

Her legs— crutches for men on a death march.


One night, near the window she heard

Louis Armstrong spilling across a crowded street.

She listened to him shape darkness into sunlight,

she heard New Orleans and the songs of ghosts living in trees,


Billie heard a trumpet untie noose knots.

Billie heard the cotton thorns in Louie’s throat.


Billie heard his voice paint Atlantic blues

and gorgeous greens,

She heard his voice paint bruise-neck-purples

and sunlight yellows.

Billie heard it say, “easy girl”

Billie heard love.

Billie heard a trumpet.

Billie heard something like love.

Billie heard something like a trumpet.

Billie heard love inside a trumpet.

Billie heard Louie.


May 7, 2012
Objects of My Affection.

I remember when, when I first moved here
A long time ago
‘Cause I’d heard some song I used to hear back then
A long time ago

I remember when, even further back
In another town
‘Cause I saw something written I used to say back then
Hard to comprehend

And the question is, was I more alive then than I am now?
I happily have to disagree
I laugh more often now, I cry more often now
I am more me

But of course some days I just lie around
And hardly exist
And can’t tell apart what I’m eating
From my hand or my wrist

‘Cause flesh is flesh, flesh as flesh as flesh
The difference is thin
But life has a certain ability of breathing new life into me
So I breathe it in

It says here we are and we all are here
And you still can make sense
If you just show up and present an honest face
Instead of that grin

And the question is, was I more alive then than I am now?
I happily have to disagree
I laugh more often now, I cry more often now
I am more me

And the other day, this new friend of mine
Said something to me
“Just because something starts differently
Doesn’t mean it’s worth less”

And I soaked it in, how I soaked it in
How I soaked it in
And just as to prove how right he was
Then you came

So I’m gonna give, yes I’m gonna give
I’m gonna give you a try
So I’m gonna give, yes I’m gonna give
I’m gonna give you a try

And the question is, was I more alive then than I am now?
I happily have to disagree
I laugh more often now, I cry more often now
I am more me

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